Sunday, October 3, 2010

Mamavation Monday- 10/4

Life has been crazy.... It never stops. My baby had her 2nd Birthday on the 30th. My baby is growing up... The beginning of the week my hubby thought that he was getting laid off towards the end of the week. We were expecting it, but not this soon. He is now a seasonal worker spraying oil on the roads for the state. We have bills that we need to consolidate and none of the local banks want to do anything for us. No wonder our country is in the situation that we are in. If we can't get our payments down on the bike I have a feeling that they will be taking it when JR does get laid off... Gram has been driving my mom to almost insanity and I seem to be the only clam to the storm, but my baby and I are made as the excuses for something that she does not do or something that happens. She doesn't know what she is saying or doing, but it is hurting everyone. She doesn't remember going to our wedding last year... Then on my daughters birthday a deer decided to jump in front of JR on his way to work. He was ok and the Jeep isn't too bad, but just another thing to stress over. JR is still working thank God! In fact he will be out of town working for a few days next week.

Saturday we had my baby's Birthday party and I totally indulged.... I had 2 huge pieces of cake, 2 sloppy Joe's, and ice cream. Today I feel like all my hard work is lost. It's a rainy dreary day today and that has really set my depressed mood. Bella's party was small with just grandparents and a friend, but I felt so bad. We don't have a lot of money right now, so we couldn't provide a whole lot for her. I know she is only 2, but with our first she had everything and then some. I feel that she is always getting left out and I hate it! I feel so bad that we can't provide as much for her. Hubby's parents take the oldest all the time, but they have only once taken Bella. So, when JR and I go out (once in a blue moon), my parents take Bella and his take Joc. As my mom keeps saying they just don't know what they are missing. And I totally agree, she is sweet, loving and so funny. Joc is the total opposite of her. When they stop to take Joc to ride her horse or go some place, it just breaks my heart because Bella just screams like someone is truly hurting her. And they are... It just showed at her party yesterday who she would rather be with... My parents. She sat almost the whole time with them and not JRs. JR says the reason that they don't take her is because of the diapers, well, GET OVER IT, SHE IS YOUR GRANDDAUGHTER AND SO DIFFERENT THAN JOC, GET TO KNOW HER! They truly don't know what they are missing with her.....

I have been trying to combat all this stress with yoga and I have a feeling that if I wasn't doing it, I would be a total mess. It's truly amazing.... I am also planning on quiting smoking tomorrow! 10/4/10 is my quit day! I have to quit for my own health and my family!

My Goals this week:
  • Take a deep breath
  • Keep breathing
  • QUIT SMOKING!
  • Commit to Fit(this is my life and I need to be healthy for not only me, but my family! This is a commitment that I must make! I always told myself that I would never get overweight, and here I am over weight. So, I am not only going to get rid of this weight, but I am committing myself to be more active than I have been, and eat healthier than I have been. This is my Commit to Fit!)
I would like to give a BIG shout out to the SOTW Shelley @Momma_Oz ! Congrats!!

This weeks blogging Carnival is sponsored by  SUBWAY and their Commit to Fit Campaign and Jared! Jared is a true inspiration!

24 comments:

Laila said...

You have a lot going on right now, taking a deep breathe is definitely a good way to start.

Don't worry about having a lot for your daughter, she has a loving family and that is most important! I'm sure that is what she will remember the most.

Best of luck to you this week.

Kimberly said...

Oh, big hugs girl! I will keep you in my prayers! I am sorry you are going through so much right now! My in-laws are kind of the same way with my kids. They fuss at us about not bringing the kids over but when I need a babysitter, most of the time, they can't. So, my kids are more connected with my parents! Again, Hugs! And if you need anyone to chat with, DM me!

Rebecca B. said...

I'm so sorry about your husband's job and the bills. We have been there MANY times and are just beginning to climb out of the hole. If you need to vent let me know!

My daughters 1st birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks and I am planning on having a big plate of fruit there for me, but I am also TOTALLY planning on having some cake. And ice cream. Don't beat yourself up too much over it!

I'm so jealous of the rainy, dreary days.... I love days like that and they are severely lacking here. Wanna trade??

Keep it up, and let me know if you need anything!

Heather @ Not a DIY Life said...

Hang in there, girl! Stress doesn't help when trying to stay healthy. You have to take care of your emotional self too.

I know it's tough. Hugs.

Roo said...

Wow. Life is crazy for you right now.

First, deep breaths. You will get past this.

I'm sorry that you have grandparents showing favortism. That is so sad. We have a similar situation and it breaks my heart.

You can do this.

Big hugs!

The Maniacal Matron - @MMScarlett said...

whooo hooo you can do it! Kick that icky smoking habit!

I am here if you need anything at all!

Have a great week

mozzie76 said...

{HUGS} I know it's hard when everything seems to hit at once - taking a deep breath will help and I know you can get through this. I've been in your shoes more times than i can count and feel for you. Keep you chin up! Good luck with your goals this week! I know you can do it!

bookieboo said...

Best thing to do when you are quitting is taking action now instead of waiting till tomorrow. In the future, just put whatever it is down right that second. Waiting is a mental game. Keep us informed! XXOO

kia said...

You have a lot going on and while I think your goals are admirable I would focus on one thing at a time right now in the midst of everything. Quitting the cigs is a huge one that will not be easy, but will do so much for you health. Good luck and keep on taking those sweet sips of breath.

Heidi said...

Those are some wonderful goals--here's to a better week, girlie! Just take it one step at a time. Happy birthday to your Bella! Def keep us posted on quitting smoking; I'm trying to help my hubby quit!

danielle said...

Sorry about your husband's job. I totally know how it feels to be in that situation.
Happy Birthday to your baby!
Don't get down on yourself for having an "indulgent" day! Get back on the horse and keep going.

gretablau said...

Yes!! Quit smoking! You have lots of company, me included, who have quit!! You'll feel so much better.

Hang in there, sista!!

gretablau said...

And your work is NOT lost. Get back on that horse. It's only lost if you give up. Hang in there!!

Rachel said...

Hugs, hugs, hugs, girlie!

Whew -- that is a LOT of drama and stress and worry to have on one set of shoulder's; don't let one weekend/day of emotional eating get you down. You just get back up and get back to work -- we've all been there and if you stay frustrated at yourself, it's harder to get back on track (believe me).

Good goals this week -- you definitely need to breathe.

Marie said...

It breaks my heart to hear that they are leaving out your youngest daughter. That is not fair to her.

I'm glad you are finding peace with yoga. It has helped me through many stressful days.

Wishing you the best with your goals, especially the smoking. Chin up, stay strong, Namaste

Marie said...

It breaks my heart to hear that they are leaving out your youngest daughter. That is not fair to her.

I'm glad you are finding peace with yoga. It has helped me through many stressful days.

Wishing you the best with your goals, especially the smoking. Chin up, stay strong, Namaste

Stephanie said...

My heart hurts for your little girl. It really isn't fair to her or you. The best you can do is validate her and love on her. She will grow up to be a confident, radiant young woman.
Best of luck quitting smoking. Take it one minute at a time. Look forward, not back :)

~Lori~ said...

Take a deep breath. I agree with everyone else. Take one thing and change it. Start with the smoking. Kick that to the curb then start with a new goal. baby steps to make big changes!

Stephen and Amanda O'Dair blog said...

Take deep breath and do it over again until you are breathing normaly. Take it one step at a time I promise that if you do this you will be able to quit you will be able to do every goal you want. Remember we all have bad days, and things can and will look up!

Laura Kelly-Pifer said...

Carrie, so sorry to hear of this. You have my number. Call if you want to chat. I can certainly relate to where you are in life right now. We had the same situation going on when my girls were that age. I'll be thinking of you!

@PamelaMKramer - A Renaissance Woman said...

Just hang in there. You have a plan girl, work your plan! Good luck this week.

Danise said...

Life is seasons... sounds like you are in a tough season right now. Hopefully this week is going better - Love and Hugs

lorrie said...

hugs hope that things get better with your life and less stress. my work is somewhat seasonal from july-sept im busy then it slows down the rest of the year ( I do petcare).

So proud of you on your decision to stop smoking good luck with that and you know you have my support hugs

also i think if you manage to get in all your water intake after a splurge it might counterbalence it happened to me today i had 100 oz yesterday and today i only gained .2 after an evening of indulgence

Colleen said...

stress and eating unfortunately go together for so many...but dont give up! You can do it!